I have been worrying a little (okay a lot) for the last week or two about the baby. I have not been feeling the consistent movement that I remember so fondly from the boys. I have been dismissing my concerns to myself and have been talking myself into waiting 'one more day' or 'one more week' before I call the doctor. Well today was the day. I couldn't wait any longer. Once I made the call to the office it was like I started something I couldn't stop. The worry all of a sudden consumed me. I was tearful and nervous all morning. It's the darnedest thing because I have had this on my mind for 2-3 weeks and not let it get to me. Once I said it out loud, it got to me!
After waiting 3 hours for the office to call me back I finally called them again. I didn't get to speak to a nurse but was advised to go to the Women's Pavilion and be monitored for fetal movement. The tears started and I struggled to hold them back as I called Chad to tell him. We were checked out in labor and delivery and heard a nice strong heartbeat for at least 20 minutes. And wouldn't you know it, she started to move a little during this time. I struggled again to hold back the tears once I could hear her heartbeat. I was told that it is still early for me to be feeling her all the time....I don't know but the boys were already VERY active at this point in my pregnancy. Anyone could have touched my stomach for 1-2 minutes and felt either of them at this point. I think that is what has had me in such a mess, comparing this pregnancy to the last two. Nothing has been quite the same and I certainly know that it is not going to be once she's here either!
I am feeling better about things now. I still would prefer to feel her more often, but it will have to do for now. fI know that God is in control and trust Him to take care of her. I will see the doctor next Monday and have my detailed ultrasound to measure the growth and look at all her organs and stuff. I am very ready for this!
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Bless your heart. You did have an emotional day. I will be praying for you to have peace and comfort thru this pregnancy. It is always comforting to feel the baby and know they are there, but maybe little Addi Grace isn't as active as the boys were. You are already seeing the differences between boys and girls! I am praying for you and thank you for sharing this. You looked great yesterday and I am glad Addi Grace is well and has a strong heartbeat.
I know how worried you must have been. I am glad everything is okay. If it makes you feel any better, Bennett was not very active at all throughout the pregnancy. Maybe there is a difference in pregnancies with girls and boys! So glad all is well!
Hang in there! As far as being different from boys and girls, this one is a lot more active than my daughter was! I'm sure he is trying to prepare me for what is to come! Only 1 more month to go! I can't believe it!!
Oh, wow! I'm sorry you had to go thru that. I'm glad she's ok. Next time, go ahead and callt he doctor to ease your mind. No need worrying when you can just enjoy being pregnant, ya know? Easier said than done, I know. We missed you at the SS party. I still want to come see your house!
I am so happy everything is o.k. I know THAT worry is something that can consume you... we had some numbers come back funny with Jonathan and then they made us do a few high level sonograms to check for Downs Syndrome... I was a wreck! All that to say, I have an all time favorite book I read when my worry level is out of control. It just puts everything into perspective for me. It's call Calm My Anxious Heart, by LInda Dillow. I know you probably don't have much down time for reading, but I thought I'd share! I'll be praying for you as you continue through this!
Glad everything is okay.
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